Up Close and Personal

Up Close and PersonalThe pleasant weekend found me up close and personal in two very different ways.  The first was getting up close and personal with a concrete sidewalk; the second with some people in need.

It was Friday after a busy week with four days of subbing and a day of Bible Study.  Tired and ready to just hit the couch, I decided instead to stop at the store to pick up a few things for the weekend so a later trip would be unnecessary.  Of course, we all know that one should not walk into a grocery store hungry or tired.  Somehow that sale item will fix one or the other of those maladies.  With several bags and boxes of soda (pop), I trudged out to the car and immediately decided my hair must be cut – NOW.  Fortunately, Great Clips was on the way home. 

Unfortunately, Great Clips had customers lines up in most of the chairs, and more on the online waiting list.  My book was in my bag and a Good Housekeeping was on the coffee table, so I said I would wait the 45 minutes for the cut.  I was ready; it had to happen.  Only two stylists were left by this time on a Friday, and apparently everyone who came in was just as determined as I to get a haircut.  With the entire Good Housekeeping skimmed and a couple of chapters read, I at last was called.  As the guy was cutting, I commented on how they must be a little stressed with just two of them and so many people deciding this was hair day.  He replied, “Yeah, kind of.  It’s been like this all day.  I haven’t eaten or had anything to drink all day and my head is pounding.  I’m trying hard to give good haircuts and do it fast.”

I asked, “If you could have something to drink, what would you have?” After some demurring, he finally indicated a Mountain Dew would be his choice, and I told him that when he was finished with the haircut I’d run over to the Publix store and grab him a Dew.  He  dutifully declined, but I insisted and he admitted it would be nice.  His reply to a question about a candy bar was no, the Dew would be great.  The haircut complete, I paid him and said I’d be right back.  As the time passed, he must have started to think that was a lie.  He didn't,  and still doesn't, know the adventure that happened on the way to the Mountain Dew.

I fairly skipped out of the store to run my errand of mercy.  I was excited to be able to do a small thing for someone, thinking I was doing it in Jesus name.   I even decided I would get him a Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup since that is God’s answer to missing protein and a quick chocolate pick up.  As these thoughts were formulating, suddenly – SPLAT.  I was face down on the sidewalk; pain shooting though my lips and nose; glasses, scratched and bent, and I wasn't sure if my teeth were all there.  I had missed seeing the handicapped cut out and managed to land on the up slope of it.  One hand was tucked into the purse handle and the other in my pocket holding the cash for the purchase, and neither hand responded to the fall, so it was totally face first. 

I carefully moved everything, collected my glasses and wounded pride and eased myself up.  The lip and nose were pretty bloody so I searched my purse for a tissue, but the only thing paper in it was a store receipt.  Receipts are not absorbent.  I covered it with my hand and shuffled on to Publix where I started to clean myself off with the cart wipes, and then headed for the bathroom to assess the damage.  It wasn't pretty, but I was determined, so I held some paper towel over my nose, picked up the Dew and the Reese’s and headed back to Great Clips.  I really didn't want the young man to notice my face so I just breezed in the door, said, hey, here’s your stuff and ran out. 

I forgot to say that it was done in Jesus name, but it still was.

The second up close and personal experience was very different.  I almost missed it because I was really self conscious about my huge upper lip and almost no visible bottom lip and well as the huge scab under my nose. 

A couple of weeks ago, one of the ladies in my small group had talked about A Day of Hope which is a Ministry Fair on the grounds of the local courthouse designed to draw in people who have need of help in any aspect of life.  Several area churches are involved in the organizing, and a number of organizations, agencies, and ministries come to share resources with those who attend.  There are free manicures and haircuts, bags of groceries, breads of all kinds, treats, games for kids, adult and youth entertainment, and a coat give away. Volunteers from the churches help in some of these areas and as prayer volunteers. 

From the first moment Robin mentioned it, there was a little nudge in my heart, but I needed to know more.  The news was not comforting to my somewhat introverted self.   I looked at my calendar for conflicts.  None.  Maybe Beth and Bill wanted to do something. Nope they had a full just-the-two-of them-day-planned.  The nudge got stronger and so I said I would come.  Then came the fall, and I thought maybe that would be a good excuse,  but that didn't work out either.  So, I showed up for the orientation.  Two groups would do the prayer ministry, the group that would go out and approach people, ask if they had a need, and if they would like prayer.  Gulp.  The other group would stay in the tent and pray for those who came in for specific prayer. OK, I can do that.

“So, who wants to go out and be prayer ambassadors?  I only recognized one person, a young guy from the small group, but he had missed a few times and really didn’t know him well.  He made eye-contact and pointed and I nodded.  Turns out, he was feeling just like me,  nervous about the task, but seeking to get outside of his own comfort zone..  We had such a fruitful time, praying with some people, sharing with some people and talking and getting acquainted ourselves.  We got back in the tent later and both had the chance to pray with people there. 

It was such a blessed day, and apparently my poor banged up face did not deter anyone. 

Once again, there is reason to be grateful – a fall that could have been so much worse, a new friend, helping and connecting with people in need, encouraging them to accept the resources because we loved them and being reminded that the heart is more important than the outward appearance.  Growing and stretching is good, too. It’s all part of the Joy in the Journey.

Deep Thoughts

It's been a long time since I have written here.  It's not that I haven't thought about stories or thoughts to share.  Truly, it is not that I have been so busy,  Many days have been busy, but I am also aware that we do what we decide to do, and on any given day, we can usually change our priorities, but we either choose not to alter our plans or to interrupt the flow of the immediate "this is what I want to do".

Today, my thoughts demand I share them.  At first, I considered sharing just with Beth or maybe with my SIC friends (Sisters in Christ) but I wanted a more permanent record of my thoughts and to share them with those who might consider taking a moment to read them.

This whole blog site started as I reflected on my literal journey to the South and from time to time to ponder the spiritual events that came in preparation for, during, and as an aftermath of that journey.  Let me share my "profound" morning on this day of joy in the ongoing journey.

As I lay in the coolness of early fall, desiring time just to enjoy the feel of lying on my bed on a sleep-in day, I decided to have a prayer time.  Those moments became a pondering period, thinking about the Bible Study I am currently doing in Genesis beginning with creation and moving through the Fall and the entrance of sin into God's perfect creation.  I began to wonder why. Why would God allow sin to come into Paradise?  Why would there even be a Satan?  Why would God create a scenario where humanity even had a choice?  As I lay, gently asking these questions, some thoughts flitted across my mind, not necessarily entirely new thoughts, but jumbled echoes of Sunday sermons, Bible class and small group discussion, Women's Bible Studies, and conversations of the past.

As I thought about the Creation and Fall stories that have been my topic of study in the past five weeks, I considered that perhaps as God determined to make a heaven and an earth and to populate that earth with creatures made in His own image, with whom God would share a loving and intimate relationship, God understood that true love always demands an element of sacrifice of oneself for the benefit of the beloved. He wanted a being outside of Himself whom He could love and who would love Him in return.  God didn't need that; God wanted that.  Yet love coerced is not love, but duty.  Love that requires nothing given or returned is doting or paternalistic, and really isn't love at all.

God had to be aware that for the kind of relationship He wanted, God had to be the first one to love. That meant from the beginning, before humanity was created, before male and female, God knew and planned for His sacrifice.  As the Bible puts it: Before the foundation of the earth, the lamb was slain. (Revelation 13:8) We could not really know and love God if he just MADE us love, adore, worship or obey.  God's plan showed the depth of His love for the ones He created, even knowing that their choices would be totally counter to the Divine desire.  Truly, this allowance of choice was the first of God's sacrifices for us, that we would be people free to choose or reject Love and Relationship with God.

Then, with those thoughts floating about my mind, I got up to begin the mundane things of a Saturday,  I fixed my baked oatmeal breakfast and sat down to catch up on my Friday devotional and complete the Saturday one as well.  That's what Saturdays are: catching up on the loose ends of the week.  The passage for Friday was Matthew 27:45-54.  The devotional's title was When You Feel Forsaken and the Bible's heading was The Death of Jesus.  My first thought was the one that said, "Yeah, once in a while I feel a little forsaken as days go by and I don't see my family or hear from my friends."  I began to read the passage and tears just flowed as my thoughts from the morning poured in next to the words of the Scripture.

This is such a dark passage because it so powerfully portrays Jesus physical, mental and spiritual pain.  For a moment as He hung in the throes of death, He felt alone in all the Universe, because in that moment He felt separated from the Father, from the Spirit, and even from Himself. For an eternal moment He knew personally the darkness of sin, and then He knew it was finished. Meanwhile the power of that moment saw the veil at the temple torn from top to bottom, tombs opened, saints walking the earth, and one centurion with Jesus' wrenching cry assaulting his ears, Jesus torn body
piercing his eyes, and the stench of blood filling his nostrils said, "Truly, this was the Son of God."

We don't love God, so God will love us.  We don't have to prove our love.  We choose to love Him because He first loved us. 

An Ordinary Day - Blessed

The alarm sounded at 5:55.  That early hour allows me to be up and started should I get a sub call at 6:30 and have to report at 7:30.  Since the schools where I sub are all at least 15 minutes away, I run the risk of cutting it pretty close anyway.  So by 6:30, the morning basics are done, the bed is made and I am fully awake.  That’s a real bummer when the phone doesn't ring.  Today my morning ritual was interrupted at 6:20 by a call from my daughter who is the morning sub caller at Gwin Oaks Elementary, which I like to call my school.  “Ah, a job,” I thought.

She hemmed around a little and then gave me a proposal.  There weren't any teacher jobs, but a special education parapro had called in sick and they wanted her to do that after she finished her morning computer classes.  (That’s because she is great with the kids and loves it.)  The problem was that yesterday she had volunteered to come into four kindergarten classrooms to help each teacher with assessment for an hour.  Obviously, doing both was not an option, so she wondered if maybe I would do her volunteer job so she could do the paid one.  So, you can guess how I spent my day.

It was actually quite delightful.  I read Lon Po Po (a Chinese Red Riding Hood tale) with one class, watched a signed version of Little Red Riding Hood and Goldilocks in another class, and assessed sight words with another class.  I was in "my" old Kindergarten classroom where I just connected with the kids. Getting those sweet hugs and stories just warms my heart.  It was spring picture day at school, so many children were dressed up.  One of “my” little Kindergarteners, who is just a peanut – I mean he is so little, he looks like he’s three - was wearing black dress pants, a soft aqua blue dress shirt with coordinating tie, and a black vest.  He was SO adorable!

Following that I rode with Beth, or perhaps it is more accurate to say she drove with me, to take the girls up to meet their dad for a weekend visit.  (Beth enjoys driving the new car and I enjoy being a passenger for a change.)  Supper at Chick-Fil-A satisfied everyone.  We made the trip safely in spite of a chill rain.  The return trip seemed amazingly short because Beth and I just chatted about anything and everything, solving at least a few of the world’s problems.  I’m not sure the rest of the world would like our solutions – we didn't even like some of them.

While some of our topics of conversation might have offered the opportunity for profundity, the day itself was not profound.  It was an ordinary day. Beth and I each were able to serve people in a way that really helped them. I spent time with my daughter and granddaughters and enjoyed their daily lives.  Tonight I opened a letter from an old friend from Northfield days who now lives in Montana, just connecting.  She has a son and grandchildren in the Atlanta area so the possibility of a lunch with her some time is very real. 

In my mind these are blessings from the Lord and I treasure them.  In that way they are indeed profound.

More funny that "Lenten"

I started this Lenten series of Joy in the Ongoing Journey with the intention of remaining somewhat serious as befits the season, but today finding the spiritual application may be a stretch, but it was ... what word would describe it? Scary, challenging, funny, weird, bizarre, seriously? (You know the seriously spoken with each syllable raised a pitch or two for the full question effect.)

Let me set the scene for you.  I returned home after subbing in a third grade class and a second grade Focus (gifted) class.  It was a good day.  Delighted by the pleasant temperatures and gentle breeze, I decided to hit my porch when I got home since the next week is supposed to be more conducive to an ark than to a respite   in the sunshine.  As I pulled up, one of my neighbors was trying to repair his car window so he sat with the panel off the doors clattering about with tools.  That occasioned a quick chat about do-it-yourself projects. He, too had decided to take advantage of the good weather to accomplish something; in his case it was more than a rest.

Wishing him luck on getting it all back together, I stepped into my apartment and did the double lock as is the habit here in the big city.  I grabbed my new Nook tablet and headed for the porch.  Little hints of spring fragrance touched the air, a few clouds covered the bright sun, and a little breeze made it just pleasantly cool.   I sat down and began to read.  Soon the short night and the long day began to catch up with me, and I set the notebook down and lay my head back.  However, the chair where my legs were propped was a little too high, so I decided to go inside and enjoy my sofa-chaise.  It seemed like a wise decision because my feet and legs were tired after the school day, and I imagined trying to get up from a nap with immovable knees.

I gathered my book and headed for the door.  I put my hand in the handle and ...the door was stuck.  Odd, I thought. It locks from the inside.  So I set the notebook down and tried again to no avail.  It...was... locked!!   Part of me wanted to cry, because I had no idea what I was going to do.  Calling Beth of going to the office for a Master key wouldn't help because the main door was double locked so it would not open to a Master key.  There I was, on my porch with its three and a half  or four foot privacy wall with no key to house or car.  Trying the door several more times and then thinking maybe I could lift up a little or something brought no solution.

A glance at my watch told me the office would close in 20 minutes, so prudence demanded that I get off the porch and hightail it to the office on my poor weary feet with my teaching shoes on.  The only problem with starting that was the privacy wall.  Now it's not all that high, but neither am I.  The flexibility I once had seems to be more than a little diminished, so at first it might as well have been 6 feet high.  However, undaunted I climbed up on the folding wooden chair that was my too high footstool and threw one leg up to the top of the railing  The other one followed and once they were both over, the trip to the ground was pretty much a matter of controlled gravitational pull.. Admittedly, I did not even look around to see who might have been watching.  I did not want to know.

Nor did I know I could walk that fast with the tired legs and dress shoes, but I passed several people in my trek and arrived in plenty of time.  As I attempted to explain my conundrum, they couldn't quite believe it, but once it was clear, the sweet ladies tried to keep straight faces, and then called the guys on the maintenance staff.  I heard, "No, no. She is really locked out - front door and sliding glass door."  Frankly, images of broken glass marked the only solution I could conceive. Word came that the crew was going to see what they could do and in about 20 minutes, Miranda whisked me back to my apartment in the golf cart.  There the guys were standing outside guarding my unlocked front door.  My hero explained that he had to unscrew the lock and fix it because it indeed had fallen down and latched because the internal mechanism was loose.

I am now happily ensconced in my house. Needless to say, I will be a little leery of shutting the  door completely when I go out on the porch and I will probably choose not to use the over the railing exit route any time soon.

I think this may call for using that O'Charley's gift card I have.

Is there any redeeming thought in this, any Lenten reflection?  Probably, but mostly what I reflect on is that once I would have stressed, or gotten mad, or cried or even screamed (well maybe not outside in an apartment complex), but I felt the Lord's calm and it is just another memory and story for the journey.  Thank You, Lord.

Cleaning Day - A (Wonderful) Ordinary Day

Today's post is more like the beginning days of the blog, just reflecting on my day.  

Today was delightful, and the delight originated in cleaning, sweeping, scrubbing, scraping paint drops, and meeting people. 

 Many weeks ago mold was discovered in the basement walls on one side of my  church.  The board acted swiftly, shutting down the rooms, shuffling programs, and arranging for the necessary abatement and repairs.  For months now classes doubled up or crowded into "trailers" for Sunday school and Bible Studies.  While it is a blessing that the church has the trailers for expansion, they are cold and drafty and certainly not the best for children and nursery, but they managed as the walls came down and went back up.

Today marked the first day of the move back into the newly reconstructed rooms with their fresh colors and flooring.  It was the women's day, doing those things that need to be done before furniture and fixtures are moved back so that the children can use them.  Even with a great construction and painting crew that actually knew how to clean up after themselves, the ladies wanted to know for themselves that everything was thoroughly clean.

The call went out to ladies for a cleaning day today.  I decided I would go if I didn't get a subbing job.  I think the Lord wanted me there because the phone did not ring this morning.  Heading over to church at the appointed hour, I found myself one of three. The organizer expressed concern, but it was unfounded, as more and more filtered in throughout the first hour.  Eventually, all she could do was direct the helpers to tasks.  

The main focus was preparing the nursery for babies and toddlers.  The room began completely bare, just the cupboard and cubbies, fresh paint and a new floor.  Though it really was pretty clean, we scrubbed the counter and the cubbies inside and out.  One lady wiped the chair rail and another the baseboard.  The tallest lady used a special soft brush treated with cleaner to wipe off the ceiling.  One vacuumed the floor; another mopped it.  

My task in the nursery was to do the counter top and the inside and outside of the cupboard.  Later I helped with cleaning up the bathroom.  The painters had really done a good job, but we found the random inevitable little paint drops, and of course, no scraper was to be found. We tried credit cards and keys.  Unlike Minnesota, no one had a scraper in their car.  The more we could not find a viable scraper, the more I saw little dots of paint.  I headed for the kitchen, surveying the counter for ideas.  Let me tell you, a pancake turner makes quite an effective paint scraper.

Everything that could be cleaned was cleaned, sometimes multiple times, as ladies sought something to do.  The nursery was back in order and looked so inviting.  I sorted toys for big and little children and organized them in baskets.  That is meaningful nursery work I can do.

All of this makes the day productive and satisfying, but the best part is that I really met other women, delightful women, as we worked together.  Every lady there has a name and I learned many of them - Kay, Gwen, Renee, Dani, Esther, Tracy, and BJ are dear ladies and a lot of fun to work with.

What does this have to do with Lent?  Once again I am reminded that as I give - give anything - time, or money, or food, I always receive so much more in return.  These ladies blessed me today.  I even had the joy of hearing some of their stories and receiving their hugs. Thank you Lord. 

Poetry Challenge

Coming home from Bible Study, lunch and a trip to get my email on my new little tablet, I was wondering about what to post today.  The discussions of Revelation in Bible study, while valuable, did not prompt thoughts of lent, spring or Easter.  My devotions, while good, did not ignite any spark.  However, my dear daughter posted the following on Facebook as she stood in the rain to greet the little car riders at Gwin Oaks.

Rain rain rain falling
Another wet car rider
There's a puddle. Jump.

She even pondered the idea of trying to post in Haiku, an interesting challenge.  As we chatted about the possibility of posting in a variety of poetic forms, I decided I would try a Diamante to express my seasonal thoughts for today. 

Lent

Somber  Thoughtful

Fasting  Praying  Reflecting

Quiet  Music  Solitude  Sacrifice

Giving    Living    Rising

Triumphant Joyous

Easter

Now my challenge to anyone who reads this - write your own Haiku, Diamante, Tanka, Cinquain or other poetry about the season from now through Easter.  If you would share it, please do.  Boiling big ideas down into a few words is a good exercise in reflection.

Blessings.

4 B's

B+BðBðB

Back in our Hutchinson Women’s Discipleship Bible studies, we always started each new study reviewing the quote:

          

In recent weeks in sermons on Romans 14 given by my pastor that quote has come to mind frequently as we have been challenged to “keep the main thing the main thing.”  Obviously, most of this is directed toward our faith walk, but some of the initial reminders came as the elections neared.  The church has devoted people whose political persuasions are completely opposite.  Pastor John urged his congregation not to let that come in the way of fellowship. 

Then as we got back into Romans after the holiday season, he introduced the  B+BðBðB (or B+B=B+B) to challenge our thinking even more when we are tempted to judge another person.  It challenges to understanding and patience.  Background and Baggage yield Beliefs which determine Behavior.  Whenever we are trying to share something of importance with another, we must realize that before they can change their beliefs they must re-frame those things which they carry from their background and baggage.

One easy example in the Christian realm is the one who came from a family in which the father was domineering or even abusive has trouble relating to God’s grace and mercy.  The one who was constantly criticized has trouble seeing their value in God’s eyes.  The implications carry into the world of school and work as well.

The call of the Romans passage is in essence to cut people some slack.  Offer grace in differences, not condemnation.  Backgrounds may be similar, but we know from looking at families that even the same household with the same parents does not afford a duplicate background for each child.  Add to that the baggage of our various experiences and we see that charity is needed at some point by all.